Imagine a love so strong that saying hello and goodbye at the same time was worth the sorrow.

December 31, 2010

2010 [[rewind time]]

2010 : The year we lost Kolton: The year we were also given Kolton. <3

2010, the year we grieved Kolton.

2010, the year I felt pain in ways I never could have imagined even in my worst nightmares. This is the year I stared absently out the window and imagined what would have been. The year of great tear floods that stained my pillowcase...No doubt, this will carry on in many years to come.

2010, the year I learned people are capable of understanding and compassion. And the year I learned people shut out pain when it becomes too much for them to handle.

2010, the year that I met some amazing people who understood completely what we were going through. It's sad to know so many people in such awful pain.

2010, the year I learned that you can be given something so very precious and for reasons unknown, it can be ripped out of your arms and leave a gaping hole where your heart once beat so strongly.

2010, I'm so very sad today to see you go. I'm not embracing the new year with excitement as I have in years past. Because 2010, the pain you brought, means Kolton was here. I mourn him so he lives.

[[Rewind time to where we still had Kolton with us]] [[Rewind time to where Kolton was safely tucked away inside]] [[Rewind time to Koltons conception, and let me take a TON of folic acid]] I'm sorry baby.
I miss you baby. I speak for the whole family. We miss you so much.

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